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well, my birthday is tomorrow. 

and i'll finally be 16. i'm so excited.

but also, i'm really scared. and i couldn't 

really tell you why, but the nerves are 

definitely there. 

a couple days ago, I decided that I was going to read the book of mormon in 13 days, to finish by my birthday. well reading 41 pages a day takes longer than you think, and more concentration. it took me about 2 or more hours a day to read that many pages. and some days, I would wake up late on accident or had to be somewhere and didn't have time for 2 hours. so I kind of started reading less pages a day, something more doable. now I'm left the day before I wanted to finish, and I'm not even close to finishing.

I am so disappointed in myself. but who knows, maybe ill try to finish those few hundred pages (literally) today, and finish my goal, or birthday present to myself. 

well, none the less, I am as happy as ever. and doing good. 

I love my Father in Heaven, and I don't appreciate Him enough. but here is to Him, the one who never left, who listened to my countless prayers, who watched over me when I was scared, who comforted me when I went through a tough time... I am so very grateful I know of Your existence, it has changed my life. 

Thanks for being my best friend, and directing me in my life. I love you. 

also, quick shoutout to my own dad. I don't know guys, he is definitely my best friend. I love him so much and am so grateful I have him in my life. he supports me in everything and is so loving. 

i am very grateful to have two wonderful Father's in my life. and I don't know who I would be without knowing either of them. they are amazing.

happy Sunday. 

remember me when you wake 

tomorrow :) 

xxxx